Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Yes. I'm Committing [[Social Suicide]]...



For years and years, all I have ever wanted were friends who I knew would be by my side no matter the situation or condition. I had always wanted friends that were true and who would always be there for me. So far, I have been through five elementry schools and two high schools. I have made my friends who were just my friends at school and I have made my friends who are still with me right now. But then how long will it take for them to dissappear? When we go off to university or college or even start working full-time, how many of us will actually remain close? So, right now, I attend a school named St. Joan of Arc. Within the whole school there is around 20 of us who are friends and are a "clique." Now, considering it is my last year, everyone, including my group of friends are excited about a specific event, prom. I find it weird because there really is no excitement to it. I mean, you waste your money on purchasing a dress, getting your hair and nails done, renting a limo and what not... but it's only for one night! And even though it's a night to remember, how can you be sure it'll be a dream come true? Now, I may be a bit critical toward this whole thing, but it's my point of view, and you can't really judge someone for stating their opinion...because it's their opinion. So, me not going to prom, why is it important that I even go? It's not. Who's going to remember me? or even you? There's around 300 graduates, and I guarentee you less than half of them know who I am or have even heard my name. And how many of them know who you are? And why should we as students of the school even care? It's not that I care, it's the fact that, throughout my high school life, I really haven't been very social toward a lot of people. My regret is not knowing as many people as I should have, but why would I even want to get to know those people anyway? Now, I maybe alienating myself from an important event and from those who I hang out with, but there are way more important things than prom. There's university to look forward to, marriage, having a job, maybe even having a family... why should prom come before all of that? Prom is just there to show off... people, especially girls competing with eachother by having the best dress or looking the prettiest, but why does that matter? Looks aren't everything. Prom is supposed to be fun and by me choosing to alienate myself from it, I just can't handle the stress of me being looked at as a "competitor" because in reality, I'm not. I don't want to be categorized as the typical girl that goes to prom just to show off what she has, because I have nothing to show. I am just an average teenage girl who doesn't want to be criticized for my appearance. I choose to alienate myself from this event also because how many of you am I actually close too? In reality, I do not have a lot of friends and I like it like that because how many people are actually your friends?

1 comment:

  1. i know you, and i know that you like to have fun. so why miss a chance at having an amazing time out just because you dont want to compete with other girls? Nobody is saying that you have to be the best dressed, all we want is to feel good, and indulge in luxuries that we dont usually get to have. Because afterall, it is the end of one stage of our lives; We should celebrate the begining of another by appreciating the fact that most of us wont be seeing eachother again, and enjoy the last night as a graduating class.

    i honestly think you should reconsider mrys.
    its really not that much of a hassle. and i want you there. I will do your hair an nails and anything if you want. I just want you to be there with us all together,just one last time.

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